Thursday, April 28, 2016

Lyra Sage : two years with the stars

Two years ago she joined the stars.

Here are the past posts about her:

Today I'm sharing some of the past, and the celebration we had for 
her this year, some of our life now. 


16 weeks. 

Born as thousands of meteors rained down from the Lyra Constellation. We chose her 
name without knowing of this meteor shower, it wasn't until a day after her birth that I saw a post on Facebook about it. The chills that came over my body when I read about the showers. How much of a 'coincidence' could that possibly be?  Not only was she born at 12:22 on the 22nd, but she was born under a meteor shower stemming from the constellation that inspired her name. So much beauty. So thankful. 

“You are rooted deep within my soul. Apart of me forever. 
In the deepest parts of my heart, there you are.” 
– Jessi Snapp

my angel, my darling, my star.. and my love will find you, wherever you are. 

I’ll see you on the other side of the stars 

Her due date 2014 :   September 29th 


Her due date 2015 :   September 29th 

Had an ultrasound for the 16 week baby in my tummy.
A BOY due March 22nd, 2016.
Saw a shooting star on the way home, so lovely.

Rainbow Baby: Jamison Lyric Jacob

 He turned our songless night, into a symphony of praise. 

Born April 2nd, 2016 

He was there with her in the stars perhaps. They sat together and she told him of her journey, of the womb and the love she felt there. She told him about me, and now he carries a wisdom from the heavens deep in his soul. Maybe she was an angel in the waters with him, guiding him and keeping him safe. In a way he carries a piece of her with him, in his eyes, they speak of the stars and galaxies we have long forgotten.
Notice the 'angel kiss' birthmark on his forehead, sweet beautiful gifts.

Awhile after Lyra was born, I had a dream with her in it. She was laying next to me. She had the most beautiful blue eyes, strawberry blonde hair that was sticking up from her head. This surprised me because I always pictured her with green eyes and dark curly hair. Everything about her was surrounded in peace. I've never felt such a radiating, soft love as heavy as I did coming from her in that dream.  It was truly beautiful and such a gift to receive that vision of her. 

And now especially, I am filled again with this thankfulness and deep awe over the 'coincidence' of Jamison having blue eyes and almost the exact same hair as Lyra did in the dream. They do not share the same father, and this hair that Jamison has is not from my genes. His hair is more red than hers was in the dream, but it is so close in color and the texture is exactly the same. In that dream it was so odd to me she had hair like she did; and now I just smile and tears fill my eyes. . . the beauty of this is unreal to me. Thank you for this. As much as he was my rainbow baby, I didn't connect too deeply with him and Lyra, or felt a healing with him coming into the world. However this one thing changed that; and now they are deeply rooted together in my heart. 

“A star falls from the sky and into your hands. Then it seeps through your veins and swims inside your blood and becomes every part of you. And then you have to put it back into the sky. And it's the most painful thing you'll ever have to do and that you've ever done. But what's yours is yours. Whether it’s up in the sky or here in your hands. And one day, it'll fall from the sky and hit you in the head real hard and that time, you won't have to put it back in the sky again.”

Her birthday 2016 

Her Journal & KeepsakesThis year and these days of remembering and honoring her have very much been about recreating what I know of her. Since her birth there’s been a heavy influence of many things I found sacred from her father; but he isn’t here with me anymore. (and this is a blessing to both of our lives). However so much that held value then; doesn’t much anymore. I still cherish the past and the things I saw her in, but now they are different for me. So I’ve been revisiting and opening up to where else beauty lies in her life… that is just me. I went through her journal I kept and added things that are just mine. I used to feel that her father and I walked this journey together but our connection is long gone now; so it’s just me walking alone. (and my other babies of course).  A new stage in remembering Lyra, and it’s a very happy one.

I went through her journal and recreated things, added to it. It feels so much more 'now' then it did 'the past'.  Beautiful. 

written in 2014 to her father.
Still makes me smile, he will have a baby of his own very soon this year;
with a woman I feel like is very good for him. He has family and 
soon will have a little girl. It's so very beautiful! So very very happy for his life now and what 
he's been blessed with. 

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